+1 Happy Memory

currently grateful for the cheesy lines na bumebenta sakin kasi mababaw lang ang kaligayahan ko...

sigh. sweetest of dreams tonight!

Rollercoaster Christmas

for the lack of other stuff to blog about, and for the sake of hitting two birds with one stone, i'm ranting a bit again. and of course, updates!

geez! a day after chirstmas and my mom's back to her old nagging self. never contented and never pleased, she's always always always like this. it irritates me so. as though nagging is her answer to everything... to boredom and dare i say it...? --to lack of fulfillment in/with life.

my christmas was a bit boring, as usual, but otherwise awesome! haha, strange, yes, i know. i mean, nothing unusual ever happens to our family christmas. as with every year, everyone's asleep by the time the clock strikes midnight. i'm the only one up. the reason being the fact that i really love greeting that special someone right at that 12 o'clock moment. it's real nice to start an occasion with a sweet conversation. so, other than the usual boring-slash-sleeping-and-non-existent-bonding of the family on christmas eve, my 2 hour conversation with him was terrific. this year's christmas wasn't perfect, but soon, the following christmases will hopefully be.

what i found weird was the proposal-but-not-really-one 'round the wee hours of morning. can't really blame him, but still got a bit pissed. waking me up halfway through a dreamless sleep didn't help either. hay.

by the way, i should mention... spent christmas in fontana. dec. 24-26, 2009. had cutie gap with me.


got 3 days left in manila starting tomorrow, then off to hong kong i go. note to self: don't be a forgetful idiot again and bring the darn digicam charger. contemplating if gap gets to go with me.

Christmas 2009

um, how do i start? first off, i guess this year's better simply coz i got to attend more parties than i did last year. i was allowed stay later than usual. downside... the horrors of stressing due to lack of sleep and constant baking of batches and batches of cookies. everything's worth it though. ^_^

december 16, 2009, dmpi christmas party. the truth: it was boring more than half the time, but hey, i'm not complaining. still enjoyed myself. i know, i'm shallow. pics here. i think i got home around 1 or 2 in the morning. can't really remember right.

december 17, 2009, ericsson-dmpi christmas party. was not able to attend this. instead spent quality time... (yes, sadyang bitin) and prepped 4 batches of cookie batter, baked 3. 2 batches for core and a batch for nacm. the last one for habi peeps. still slept late. by late, i mean morning.

december 18, 2009, core networks christmas party. held at marilao, bulacan. kudos to the christmas party committee, especially to alex for planning and organizing the programs and presentations. would like to thank everyone for the "award" i got, too. (here it is... ang bigat ng binubuhat kong bangko... "most desirable queen") glad everyone loved the cookies. have uploaded pics, but too lazy to tag. see here. only part that sucked was the exchange of gifts. everyone was so busy with work that the wishlists came in late. as a result, we passed around P500 worth of GC and/or cash. T_T had a mini farewell for chad and ate nelle, too. not as teary as expected, but ok. left marilao at 1, got home around 2. slept at 3. i think.

december 19, 2009, woke up at 1pm, but pretty soon stress levels back at all time high. needed to wash clothes coz i'm about to run out. washing machine conked out. had to try and fix it... somehow did. simultaneously, i had to prep another 2 batches of cookie batter as ordered/requested by mama's hs classmate. also, in prep for habi christmas party, i had to bake the last batch of cookie batter made on the 17th... realized too late that lpg ran out. didn't know how to change to a new tank. too chicken to keep trying coz the gas kept leaking, and it makes this really loud and scary hissing sound. called jek to ask if i could bake at his house. jek's oven was a bit broken, but still usable. kinda had to estimate the temperature without any kind of measuring device, but hey, the cookies turned out ok. all's well. had a mini photo shoot c/o jek. was real maarte on my pic turn outs. hahaha. will have to wait for jek's uploads. anyway, got home, then had to bake the last 2 batters. real sweet of tan to stay up and wait for me to finish. especially since everything got done around quarter to 4. thanks.

next agenda... rest. ^_^

Trust Issues

pressure from life. sigh, i feel so rushed. i don't really understand why. sure, i do want to settle down and live a quiet life with a family of my own, but hey, not right now! i mean, my target has always been 27 or 28. so, again, why do i feel pressured?

all in God's time. i gotta have patience, faith... i gotta learn to let go and let Him take over. kaso control freak nga ako e. i need to learn to trust Him with all my heart and soul.

i thank Him for giving me *jacob*. he's wonderful in so many ways, and he makes me happy. we both got quirks, as everyone has, but somehow, i live with his and he lives with mine. i don't really believe in love at first sight, but somehow i always believed in that certain magic. i guess this is why i loved and still love fairy tales.

my definition of love: as much as i can't and don't want to define it, really... here's my idea of it.
love is a verb, not a noun... a constant and conscious effort and decision of wanting and doing what's best for someone without selfish motives. while on romantic levels, it may be attached to certain feelings of floating, happiness, and what not, it is not and will never be confined to just that. the giddiness, excitement, and cloud 9 experience may lessen or vanish, but if and when a person decides to love someone, everything would be worth it, just to spend the rest of life with him/her. love is not dependency. "i can live without you, but i don't want to."

sigh. ^_^

My First Fun Run

achievements:
1. completed my first fun run ever
2. ran 5k (even though shortest distance available was 2.5k)
3. finished the 5k without walking (first time! i was only able to do 4k on my last 2 practice runs)
4. finished at 39mins! (will have to wait for the official time tho... hopefully, hindi ako namalikmata)

being the over-achiever that i am, when i heard that 3rd place for female-5k was 38mins (edit: akala ko lang 38mins, mali pala rinig ko... 36 pala), i wished i ran a bit faster. hahaha, but hey, this was no little feat. i had my heart on it. ^_^ (yes, with the additional/double meaning that would probably get my officemates teasing)


see, i had the cutest shoes ever! black and pink. needless to say, i needed to have a bag that matched... so, see impulse buy...


nothing compares to today's sense of accomplishment. i looooveee it!

(edit: official results are in... i finished 10th. not bad. 1st placer finished in 32 mins.)