Chug Chug Chugging Chug Chugging On

yesterday: got night activity again tonight. still debating on whether or not to ditch half day's work tomorrow. geez. seriously lacking motivation lately. dum-dum-dee-dum. contemplating on my boss' survival if i filed for vacation leave... um, let's say, for a week? i so long for an 8-hour work day with little or no OT required and a job description that doesn't include being on call (official or otherwise)

today: activity supposedly-ended at 4:30am. didn't have to go to work after all. spent the day sleeping slash qt slash smiling a whole lot. no crime in being happy, really really happy. it was simply wonderful. been such a long time since i felt like this. totally happy and contented, but as they say, every feeling comes and goes so i'm not banking on this to last perpetually... i'm just in the moment, enjoying it and looking forward to the next time the butterfly lands on my shoulder again. today, i loved waking up... 3 times! loved sleeping in the safest place on earth. loved the conversations. loved simply looking and appreciating. loved getting mesmerized. 24 hours really aint enough sometimes.